Sickening Weather

I know, I've been MIA again. This heat and humidity is really killing me. At first I wondered if I was just being a wimp but then I contacted other Cushies and found they had similar problems. So now I am under house arrest again since the heat makes me feel even more ill. Even the air conditioning isn't helping me that much.

My head is killing me and I am so nauseous that I get disoriented and don't know which end is up. People ask me why I don't feel good is it my head or tummy or something else and I can't really explain. The only thing I can do is take medicine and try to meditate my way to sleep or out of the sickness. Right now I feel sick but I thought I should write something so people would stop wondering what happened to me. All the Cushies I know are suffering and it's not like we can even say why it is just an overwhelming sense of sickness. I get very disoriented and feel like I can't even stand or speak straight.

I feel bad for people around me right now because I can't even begin to think about being nice or trying to have some fun. I can only concentrate on not being sick all over myself or them. I may be getting dehydrated as well since I am sweating more than my body weight each day I think...and that's only out half of my body. The other day I went for a short walk to get some lunch and by the time I got back half of my head looked as if I just got out of the shower. It was dripping wet. The other half was one dry. Freaky.

I have to meet with both of my surgeon this week. One to get clearance the other to get date set. I'm going to tell him I feel ok because let's face it, I'm not going to feel better till they take this thing out of my head. It's not like I feel bad from surgery. Although my incisions are still open and not fully healed and it's been over three weeks already. That's a bit worrisome but I will live.

Anyway, I'll write tomorrow and let you know how the appointment goes...