As If Major Surgery Wasn't Enough...

The surgeons office called and they said they lost my films from my MRI and CAT scan and that if they didn't find them I won't get my surgery...can you say heart attack? I would have to wait yet another three weeks if they didn't find them. So in the meantime I'm calling my family to tell them to stop driving incase it is cancelled. They just called back again and told me they found them and now they don't know if they have the clotting factor for my clotting disorder so I won't bleed to death on the table...I'm still waiting for them to call. Luckily I caught my family only 30 minutes into the trip and told them to stop...we are all waiting...god, as if the stress of getting sliced open tomorrow wasn't enough they are trying to get me to have a heart attack with all this stress. And my blood pressure is supposed to be normal for tomorrow? Yeah right with all this. I think the doctor is just trying to get out of the surgery because he wants to go golfing tomorrow. My heart is racing and I'm shaking so bad I can't even make the bed or concerntrate. These sentences are probably making me sound like a crazy woman but I'm about ready to lose what composure I had. Anyway, providing they find my tests and the clotting factor I have to check in tomorrow...Good news...they have everything they need.

God, I'm about to fall apart. This better be the last hurdle for this surgery or I won't be making it to the hospital in one piece...more later as I'm sure I won't be sleeping tonight...