Still Recuperating A Week Later

I'm still recovering a week after my surgery. I guess part of the long healing is because of the Cush and the other I have to keep reminding myself is part of the fact I had major surgery. I go in Tuesday to get my stiches out. Nice. Today the butterfly strips came off the other 4 or 5 wounds. They look gross and are slightly infected. They leave nice ooze marks on all my shirts. I still need the pain medication every 4 hours and my tummy is still a mess, probably from the drugs. All week I have been fighting a fever but I'm sure I will kick it soon. At least I hope so. Maybe tomorrow I can make it out for a short walk. My right lung is a bit tender and doesn't hold that much air so I'm working on the exercises with it so I can walk "normally" again soon. It almost makes me gasp for air since it hates when I go to take in a deep breath.

Regardless, I can't wait untill my next surgery even though I'm sure I have about had it with pain right now. But at least then I will definately be on the road to recovery and I know I can beat the Cush! This disease is very depressing but I know that soon it will all be over and I will have won. I only hope that I can find a way to help others have the strength and courage to not give up and beat it too. Right now I'm thinking that may include a job or career change but since that's about a year away I have a while to think about things.

Well anyway, I'm looking at this Memorial Day as a way of saying goodbye to the Cush and as the starting point for my final battle. I know it sounds weird and even selfish considering that's not really what the holiday is for but I'm looking at it that way. I need to have something to get me through this last leg of the race because emotionally right now I'm still having some anxiety issues and need to keep the hope up. So this is to celebrate the impending death of the Cush for me...not quite sure how I plan to do it and maybe it will be just a mental note for myself but it will be done.

Well, I hope you all have a good weekend!