Cut & Paste

I'm not sure what to say anymore as I think you have heard it all before from me. I could cut and paste myself over and over but I think you might get bored. Maybe you already are?

Well I guess I can tell you I have an appointment next week with the thoracic surgeon again to get the all clear from my pituitary surgery which would happen a week or two after. And while I should be excited I'm just tired of waiting and still sit here and wonder if it will ever really happen and if I will ever be myself again. For those of you who know me, I'm definately not a cut and paste type person. I keep thinking things will move faster but it seems that this thing needs time. And then I'll need time to recover and time to move on with my life and just more and more time. I guess I can cut and paste the same things across my to do list and calendar for the next year.

I feel like I do that wth the clothes I have that fit too. I keep trying to find ways to make a new outfit with the few clothes I have that fit and basically cut and paste the same thing on each week. I have a couple of randomly colored shirts that I may layer differently but basically it's all the same. I am trying not to buy too many more "Cushie" clothes since I hope in the next month or so I won't need them...but summer's hot weather makes it more necessary to change clothing more frequently than winter. Plus I keep oozing all over my shirts everyday. Gross!

Hell, I even get called by the same companies for jobs as I have in the past. Must be a cut and paste career too. I haven't called them back yet and have called a couple but never know what to say. DO you say, sorry I have a brain tumor and hope they want you when it's over? Or do you play it off nicely and lie about being happily employed hoping they don't find out that you're on disability and have been for a few months? Any bright ideas? I'm thinking of a slight careeer alteration when this is all over...we'll see.

Today I did get the IRS to back off from me paying my taxes I owe them...I guess that was something different and not so cut and paste of me. I hope that the weather gets nice for the weekend so I can mix it up. Or maybe it will rain one day and not the next so I'll force myself to do something different. Tonight I'm going to try and go out for dinner without running out in the middle (like the other day). It's a new restaurant in town so I guess that counts too.

I guess life isn't that cut and paste right now it just seems it....