Feelin' Lazy

Ahh, finally I caught a good nap of about an hour. You're probably laughing and thinking I'm slightly crazy about having taken such a short nap. But I can't tell you how good it felt to not wake up every 15 minutes and look at the clock wishing it was morning. It gets kind of lonely at 3 am when the world is asleep.

And now that I'm awake I feel like a slumbering bear trying not to move very much. I can't believe how tired I am. My body feels like a ton of weight but somehow I feel slightly at peace with this odd sensation. It reminds me of when this all started to "kick in" back in September. I'd sleep the entire weekend and only come out of hiding for food and to use the bathroom for two whole days. I did it twice in September! Ahh, probably 40 hours of uninterrupted sleep in one weekend.

The muscle tremors are still there but I don't feel them today and can only see them as I hold the remote and switch the channels. I finally feel somewhat at peace not being able to move and finally able to sit still without feeling as if I'm going to have a heart attack. The fatigue that has overcome my muscles is overwhelming and there is little I can do to make them move but at this point I don't really care. I think I'll just relax and enjoy my inability to move. Getting off the couch today is not on the agenda.

And wouldn't you know the sun came out this weekend so now I feel guilty at not getting out to enjoy its warmth and brightness. I've decided that it's okay though since I can see it while I'm lying on the couch. I’ll just let my imagination take me outside today.