BAD News...

I went in for surgery today for the numerous masses in my neck, face, and head. Upon additional examinations my condition is considered to severe and dangerous to conduct an operation at this point in time. While I may eventually have this surgery my condition continues to worsen and make any operations impossible due to the other issues with my health. If surgery was going to proceed today I would have been left completely paralyzed in my face and possibly entire left side of my body since my tumors are so deep and run along my jugular veins and main nerves and muscles to the head, neck and face. There was also the risk of hearing loss and body paralysis.

At this point I need to visit an additional batch of specialists in immunology, rheumatologist, hematologist, infectious disease, and an additional oncologist as well as head and neck illnesses since it is likely I have numerous conditions making my diagnosis very hard to make and to treat.

Obviously this is not good news and while I am feeling some despair today I am trying to keep a positive attitude as I continue the fight to resume a full and healthy life. I appreciate all the prayers, positive wishes and finger crossing everyone has provided me through this long and arduous battle. I hope you will continue your support as it helps me maintain a positive attitude and strength.

Over the next couple of days I will be regrouping emotionally and mentally as I prepare for a number of doctors visits and a search for doctors in the above categories who will take me on as a patient, I have been declined as a patient recently due to my complicated illness. If anyone has any connections or knowledge of a physician in the country who will take a patient with such difficulties and limited insurance and funds please email me their names and contact information privately at sweetfightgirl@optonline.net.

The funny part is I have kept my youthful looks as while at dinner tonight I ordered a glass of wine to alleviate some stress -- The waitress thought that I was too young to have a glass of wine and next week I will be celebrating my 34^th birthday, my fifth since my illness began.

Anyway, my best to you all as I will be taking a couple of days off from my blog. Again, thanks for any help you can provide.