Inner Spirit

Soon the big reveal for TLC's Cover Shot is coming (I saw it today) and I have to say the picture was one that captured me and the title could not have been more “Dulcie.” It’s a very powerful moment when one not only knows who you are but gets to see it. Often we do not get to see in ourselves who we are besides the physical aspects that everyone can - eyes, hair, smiles, clothes, etc.

The thanks to the crew for capturing the essence of “Dulcie” to a degree that I am completely unable to communicate – although others would argue I am wrong when I say something along those lines. The team at Cover Shot could not have pulled out more of me and all that I have gone through in the past few years. They were amazed that every time I see the picture I have a very emotional and powerful reaction. I still cry thinking about what is that picture represents. I wish everyone could have a picture of themselves that reflected their inner-being as much as that one picture has done for me.

That one picture has reminded me at a time when things are getting rough again; of who I am and what I am capable of achieving in life. They are now examining my bones for osteonecrosis – bone death – and may need a full femur and hip replacement (I find out soon). This could lay me up in the house for another few months but is not something that will rob me of my brain, ability to work, and who I am. Just because I may not be able to walk for a few months does not mean I am not capable of living life and being ME!

I am still a smart, talented, and fighting spirit and I hope that people who are experiencing similar struggles can see and look within themselves to find their own spirit. We all have different things that drive us but the person I am now is so different from who I was before. She is who drives me, the new me.

So I hope when you watch the show on September 15^th at 10:30 p.m. ET you too can look and find your spirit. And when I watch that show, I am sure that I will rediscover the spirit that drives me and makes me the fighter I am and will continue to be no matter what life throws at me. It does not matter if I will have to work out of my house or anything else…who knows maybe I will not have this pending surgery but it sure as hell will not break me to the point of no return.

I hope you can take a look at yourself once, just once, sometime in your life and see the spirit that drives you…