Life Crashes Into Us

Last week I was in another car accident - once again not my fault. I have some trauma to my head and neck causing the need for physical therapy, increased medication, and no driving. I will make it through – nothing compared to my struggle with Cushing’s.

At first I was mad but then I stopped and realized this was just another symbol of being alive. There are times in our life when it is uncontrollable and just moves us along without paying attention. We can't control everything and sometimes need to let go and let things happen - good or bad. Yes, I am frustrated with the set back this accident gave me and the further financial troubles it is causing but I will find my way through. I am scared about the additional damage to my head area and the visual problems I am having since the accident but there is not much I can do about it except take care of what I can…and let go.

Life does crash into us sometimes in the physical sense like this accident and sometimes like my disease. But there is a reason to it all. We have to look for that reason; not just stay angry. Yes, my life is taking a step backwards from the little I have moved forward but this accident reminds me of the course I need to take with my life. Not just starting the foundation and helping others battle rare diseases but I have to take care of myself. I need to remember who I am and not get caught up in just going through life because I need to pay the bills. I need to follow my calling and I bet the accident was a reminder to me of just that…I need to do what makes me happy and fulfilled.

For too long I had been doing things to make others happy and to pay the bills and support a very big jeans addiction. I probably will never lose the addiction to my jeans but they really are a part of me over a stuffy suit. Recently I had been doing a project to pay the bills vs. because I liked where and what I was doing. Perhaps the accident was a reminder of the need to refocus my attention to that of what I want out of life rather than just going through the motions.

Like I said, sometimes life crashes into us and the job is for us to figure out why…