Renewed Hope and New Career...

I have come to some conclusions this past week...many of you know I was close enough to a nervous breakdown to know that I don't want one! I was really upset with my career not accepting the fact I had a serious illness and was still the same brain that performed so many great deeds for them before. Instead they gave me excuses like getting sick again or I might not want to come back to the office...of course I do otherwise I would not be trying so hard! That on top of not being able to go to the doctor when I was sick and not being able to run (literally) out my stress was killing me and just adding to the pile. So I turned off the last three days of last week and took some "me" time to decide my future because trying to do everything was not getting me anywhere. In fact it was probably making me sick!

So I am signing up for COBRA; at least I will have insurance. Hopefully I won't need to use it but at least I know if I have a crisis I can go and be taken care of and figure out how to best treat my body! I am also getting back into exercise with some inspiration on some new running shoes courtesy of my best man! I have also run across some new information about “patient advocates” that help people manage their health crises and get a better life after – one they deserve. It really is not a far stretch since part of my job was patient education and outreach (with a marketing twist of course). I think this is my calling and one job where I won’t feel like a job everyday while helping people who really need it. My focus is now to find companies or start one to help people deal with doctors, understand their diagnosis and treatment options, and whatever other knowledge I can muster to give them.

While I have been sick I have been trying to help others and the little thank you emails and calls are worth the hours of listening and trying to help. Now I just need to figure out how I can earn a living helping others; not be rich just make money enough to pay the bills and feed myself. Perhaps the stars will align properly this time and I will get the job of my dreams helping other people and come home everyday feeling like I am doing the right thing. One of my friends told me if I can’t find it I should build it – maybe she is right but I think for the moment I will take the easier route than trying to build it. Once I have the money I would love to build a foundation to help people in the same manner.

Anyway, I feel like I am headed in the right direction now and perhaps I won’t be beating my head against the wall trying to be someone I am not anymore…

Here is an article that explains it all in more detail…http://www.boston.com/yourlife/health/diseases/articles/2006/05/01/for_when_a_doctor_and_a_nurse_just_arent_enough?p1=email_to_a_friend