Life in Fates Hands

I have been trying to put my life in fate's hands so that my career will be the right one and I will not be stuck in the repeated pattern of taking a job just to get one. I have several opportunities that I am working on but am still not hapy with what I have seen. One job is of interest and I should hear shortly but I also have some concerns that need to be addressed before I take it. This is the hardest place for me to put myself in fate's hands since I am down to the last pennies in the bank and really need to work but I hate to be miserable for the next few jobs due to a hasty decision.

I know you may think I am crazy but I do believe being unhappy in my job/career did contribute to my healing and illness. I have recently been working on sorting out what has changed since my illness and many people would find it interesting to know how much I have changed. Too bad this is not something I can explain to you in this format.

I would love to continue to help others in my position and to get paid for it. Today I was on the phone for almost two hours helping a lady in Ohio decide whther to get her surgery and how to work with her competing endos. She is going ahead with the surgery and I send her my most positive energy to make it through this journey. Perhaps I am meant to be a patient advocate. I don't mind a pay cut and many people do not believe me but I just want to be truely happy in my life. Finally I am happy with who I am and who I am with and how I live my life. Perhaps with just a little more time the career will follow and I have to allow fate to do it's job.

I have come to the conclusion that religion is not for me and spirituality is the way to a sound mind/body and spirit for me. This upsets many people since I was raised a devote Catholic and many people hear this thinking I believe in "dark" things. This is in no way true and I feel closer to the spiritual world after a walk or a good night's sleep and meditation. This has allowed me to become happy with my life and my big sign to do something was Cushing's. I realize with this awakening I will be able to change the habits that allowed me to become ill from stress and heartache. It has allowed me to deal with my past and put it in a place where it deserves to be.

So now I just have to wait for fate to decide my career status. I trust the Universe will bring the right opportunity at the right time but I just hope it happens soon. I have lived a very patient life in the past couple of years so now I am eager to jump back in fully. Perhaps some of you can help or have ideas of what fate may have in store for me.

Have a great night and get some sleep from that missing hour we just experienced.