Steroid Withdrawel

Well I was doing fairly well until this past weekend on the lower dose then all of a sudden it hit me. I'm assuming some of the higher doses that were left in my body have now gone away and I'm left wth the little I'm currently taking which is why I have been feeling lousy the past couple of days. I'm almost back to the way I was when I had to go back in the hospital fo sodium and potassium issues. Or maybe I just over did it this weekend and need to cut back. Either way I'm sure my doc will tell me.

I've been working on a few side projects lately and that is why you haven't heard from me. No that I've had a lot to tell you either. No exciting news, no weight loss, nothing is going back to normal yet. It's very frustrating and to think that I will have to slow my taper down is killing me since it will delay my going back to work and I really don't have any money left to be waiting to go back to work. I am pretty much flat broke and to think I have to last until at least January until I can return to work. Believe me I wish I could return to work...not that I think my job will have me since I've been out almost a year and will be out a year or more by the time I can go back...

I have a few ideas about career changes and I should be happy I have this time to investigate and see but it isn't something I can afford to do right now. So I am investigating and hope that I can get moving on a couple by the time I can return to the working world...only time will tell. Until then I have to pinch pennies and start cutting back on food and stuff until I can get things under control financially. Hopefully I can find a roommate or something that can prolong my ability to not work until my body is ready.

I feel like the entire last year of my life has been on hold and just waiting for this damn disease. And now, well it's just more waiting and hoping that soon I will be able to regain the control over my life! For now I'll do some volunteer work that I can do at leisure to fill some of my time...now if only it paid. To thikn I'm giving away stuff that I charged and arm and a leg for in the past making thousands of dollars...but it is all for bettering the world right? Maybe this will all come back to me one day and my life will finally be "normal" and without as my friends say...all this drama! God knows I have enough drama to go around!