Sleeping Beauty

Wow am I sleepy! All I seem to do these days is sleep and it feels so good. I haven't slept in months and now to sleep like sleeping beauty is amazing. Although sometimes it is a bit scary since I have a hard time waking myself to take my pills in the middle of the night or to go to the bathroom. I mean, I am totally passed out and can't even move.

I still wake up at hourly intervals to go to the bathroom because my kidneys are still dumping but the sleep I get in between is solid. I wish I'd never have to wake up and pee but I'll take actually sleeping in spurts better than nothing at all like before. My doc is working on my meds so that this is more controlled and the past week has been a bit better since I'm only waking every hour and a half at times. She says that this is all normal and that my body really needs sleep because of the past year of trying to get diagnosed and fighting with the world. Not to mention the fact I have had two major surgeries within a months or so of each other.

So my mom and my boyfriend were gone this weekend (my mom has gone home and my boyfriend is traveling for work) so I finally didn't feel guilty for sleeping as much as I wanted. It's not that they made me feel guilty but they both have been great through all this so I feel like I should spend some good quality time with them...besides I feel kinda weird sleeping for 15 hours straight and then taking naps on top f it. I make myself feel guilty I think more than anyone else. After years of working hard and working out and being very active it is very hard to force yourself to sleep and nap because your body says so. Maybe I wasn't listening to myself enough and that's why I was having such a hard time when I first came out of the hospital. I mean, for the first time in months I wasn't feeling as sick as I had been for the past year plus of my life. Let's not say I'm well by any stretch of the imagination but I feel better than I had and I still have a very long way to go to get better.

So I'm happy my boyfriend is back...it's kinda nice to woken up like Sleeping Beauty. Trust me, I still am working on the beauty part but it's nice to wake up with a kiss!