Withdrawel Begins

Or should I say Methadone withdrawel begins since I've already been going through a cortisol withdrawel since surgery. I saw the pain management specialist today and he is having me quit the methadone "cold turkey" since I wasn't on a huge dose. He did mention that I'll have a pretty good withdrawel but after all I've been through for so ling this will seem easy. Sure, easy for him to say he's not the one who is deathly afraid of throwing up. And what if I throw up too much, will I go back in to a sodium crisis? God I hope not! Anyway, I'm still on Percocet and he added Tramadol for my daily pain management. Tramadol isn't supposed to make me as sleepy and groggy so we will see if it works.

My pain is 100 times better than when I had my tumor but the wirthdrawel from the cortisol my body was producing has left me with some. They say with time that will all go away but in the meantime I'll use the pills. Many of you ask me what hurts thinking it's the site of surgery but it really is other areas of my body. I have a very deep muscle pain and nerve pain in my lower half of my body, from my ribs down. I still have the headaches but not nearly as bad as before! Whew! I do get worse if I push myself so like the docs said...take it very slow...that means only a couple of very short walks a day and ots of rest! God it's boring but it sure is a hell of a lot better than before the surgery!

Well, I'm off to read since I can now enjoy my books again! Have a great weekend! I'm sure I'll be hugging the bowl and sicker than a dog in the 100+ degree heat and the withdrawel...I'll let you know how bad it is when it's over!

By the way, I don't get "high" from all these drugs and can't really inderstand why people get addicted and want to use the recreationally...personally I'd love to get my energy back and get rid of the "cloudy/foggy" feelings!

Later!