Physical Dependency

So I got the call back yesterday from the pharmacist and he says it appears that my body developed some sort of physical dependency on the methadone even though I was ona small dose. He says if I'm not better by the weekend I should go to see my doctor again and make them help me out. He said mostly real heroin addicts get this but it's possible since I've been on so many drugs lately that my body is more open than others. Great! He laughs because I'm one of their best customers and they know my whole history by now, which is great when someone is dispensing you tons of drugs...an added security layer, I suppose.

So anyway, I have another physical dependence...other people. Which totally sucks because it's summer and people have fun lives to live and who wants to come and sit with me and grab a five minute walk for lunch? My boyfriend has to travel a lot lately or I know he would do the smaller fun things with me like go lay around int he park and chat and have an outside lunch at a nearby restaurant. I feel kinda funny these days and I don't think it would be wise to wander around town and end up passed out in the middle of some side street with the bums. Hey, those bums are all addicts too and many are on methadone...see any connection? I think my friends find me boring but they don't realize that all I want is a quick lunch or movie where I can do something other than sit here and think about me and all the things I can't do yet. I am ready to jump up and conquer the world but physically I won't be for a few more months. Bummer! But patience is a virtue and by now I must have a lot of it. :-)

Anyway, this weekend I hope to get around a little with or without my sidekicks. I'm going to try but who knows with this damn withdrawal...ugh! Perhaps a movie around the corner or I'll walk to the end of the street for a manicure and pedicure. Hey, I'm sure my cat appreciates my pretty feet even if others don't see much of them. Okay, of to make some lunch.

Have a great weekend free of physical dependence!