Confused Doctors Making Me Crazy

So I have three neurologists now and two think I need to have the small (greater than an inch) "tumor" on my right side taken out as well as one on my left side in my ear/brain/face area Goes around my ear and deeper and down my neck into my thyroid according to the February MRI). And the one who can't make up his mind is waiting for my EEG but they called to change it - good because the move is going to be hard enough in the next 10 days. I can't wait for my man to get home and help since it tires me so much. I dropped some stuff off today and need to go clean so I can decorate - no sense doing it without being clean.

Anyway, the past MRIs from February warrant surgery and the current ones are being mailed and the doc who does not get back to me cares less while the other two believe I should be getting it taken care of before i get worse pain, movement and thought process wise.

I was also called by my other two docs for appointments that are not currently scheduled as a result and am confused by that as well. My pneumonia has gone away mostly but I can tell there is still some in there since I was working hard today and it hurt my chest a lot - or it could be the fact I forgot my heart meds for the past four days and just started them again last night...UGH!!!! That was not a good feeling.

So all of these appointments and tests are insane and I have two appointments tomorrow. The radiologist said I have several tumors down my head, cervical, thoracic, and lumbar spine but no one seems to give me a clear answer. Looks like I will have to pay to get them since Medicare does not cover it and I have no other insurance since I can not afford it.

Anyway, I am trying to stay sane and not worry too much which is hard when everyone has a different opinion. Besides that and the move coming I am exhausted and trying my best to do it all while my man is traveling. Hopefully when he gets home it will be easier since the days are getting short till the move.

I cleaned out my closet and drawers to donate my clothes that are too small and figured if I get to that size I deserve to get new ones since medically it may take a while and I am not allowed to exercise too much and my hormones and other chemicals make it almost impossible for me to get back to a size four anytime soon. So far I have donated two bags of clothes and have one part of my closet and the front closet with coats and such.

Anyway, maybe I'll get some clarification tomorrow - all I know is it is definitely 100 percent genetic at this time. I wish I had some more support since my man is going to be worn weary by the time this is over not to mention myself. I am also filing a living will soon and the paper work to get the foundation official - not till September for the foundation since the will is more important. I have been have severe headaches near the tumors and should one cause a stroke or aneurysm I want to be covered not to mention if I have surgery my man and family will not have to argue over my wishes.

Other than that I am excited for the move to be over and enjoy the time with my man and to have on major thing off my plate so it seems less stressful. Fingers crossed for good appointments tomorrow...and some answers and a lil more pain management of some sort, I really don't care what just kill the pain till we figure out the final solution.

Till tomorrow...