Drained

I'm feeling a bit drained right now. Lately my emotions are running high and I am under a lot of stress due to tests for Cushing's and cancer. There is are a couple of forms o cancer that cause Cushing's and my previous tests show a high cancer marker but it was never followed up on. I can't tell you how hard this is when i am trying to get my life back with a job and stuff...looks like freelance will be in my future so I can survive the turmoil of work and life with a rare disease...but life does go on - it is just not easy. A lot of love and support is needed and my boyfriend has been the bulk of it lately so I feel a bit guilty because he gets it all. But then I am so thankful to have met someone who loves me enough to stay and believes in me! He is the best thing that ever happened to me and I hope he can hang around a bit longer so we can enjoy the good stuff!

Right now I am going through a ton of tests and they are putting a huge emotional stress on me not to mention physical. I have a few MRIs and other labs to have done in order to determine exactly what is going on with my body. the tests alone are enough stress but trying to get people to understand and pay the bills at the same time are a lot of things to deal with in ones life. My body feels like someone tried to shove me down the drain along with all my emotions.

With that said, this one is short and just was a quick update and a thanks to the man for standing by me and helping me when others aren't there...must be they didn't get the notice about how much "draino" had hit my life and how much I needed them...oh well..on I trod...more soon...