Just me - not AP style

I got four new pets for Marvin, he was lonely, I think. I got a cool orange snail and a green one to keep the tank clean as well as two mollies, one black named Noche and one white who I call Luna. Incidentally the snails are named Neon and Verde, respectively. And no I am not Spanish I just happen to call things Spanish names. I called my old car coche. Kind of obvious but it makes it easy for me to remember and I get to use my vocabulary.

I got some new pain meds delivered today one long-acting oxycotin and one short-acting for break through pain. Hopefully they work better so I don't curl up in a ball in pain quite so often, especially with the holidays coming. Maybe I should write you one day when I am on them all even though they really have very little mind-altering effects like addicts claim because I have true pain not some high! I will admit though, that when the pain is gone I do get a bit chattier simply for the reason I can talk and not have to concentrate on stopping the pain mentally. I meditate a ton as I go about my daily life but you wouldn't know it. I find it does help me both physically as well as emotionally. More people should try it.

I'm writing on my new laptop! It's nice to sit anywhere I am comfortable to just write or think or whateever. Not that this is the most thoughtful posting I have ever written. I just like some privacy when I write sometimes and this allows me to take thi anywhere!

So tonight I am going to see the Lion, Witch, and Wardrobe...yippee. I have a huge coat that looks like I should be part of the cast with its lion color and huge mane-like collar. One lady shouted at me today that she loved my coat and had to know where i got it. I love this coat too because it allows me to hide some of my Cushieness. It is long suede and goes almost to my ankles but without being too dressy. It has this beautiful embroidery on the back and fur around the end of the sleeves and collar. I love it and it's the one funky piece of clothing I have left that fits. Well I bought it last winter but most of my clothes from then still don't fit. I have gained even more weight since then so I have to get new clothes. One would think this is fun but not for someone with my current budget and body shape. My friend's sister is having a baby today and is quite the dresser I'm told so I am hoping she has some stylish jeans that won't make me look pregnant. I can't seem to find pants that stay up since my ass hasn't grown but my tummy still does.

Well, tomorrow is my 32nd birthday and I'm trying to get excited but it is not happening...I can barely remember the past two years of my life either because of meds or this disease. I read my blog to remind me of my life. I just want to say, I use this journal as my personal "bitch" page and I'm not nearly as grumpy as this makes me sound. Actually it is quite the opposite. I am positive most of the time but with anyone fighting a battle this long I have my days of anger, frustration, and sadness. I also don't pay much attention to the "correctness or AP style" of my writing her since this is just me not something that needs to be edited for correctness because I shouldn't be told how to be myself and that is why I started this page.

Well I have to get ready for my hot date - he's the most amazing man to stand by me through all this. Who would have thought that one can find love in a time of great pain and suffering? I can't wait until I am better and give him all he deserves for being a constant support to me. Yikes, I gotta run, I could go one forever.

PS - AP Style is used by writers, mostly journalists and those who wish to be published...which I wouldn't mind but I have other writings for that!