Oh My Fluttering Heart

Whew, I survived my first workout on the cross-training machine. I feel a little light headed and my heart seems to be fluttering extra hard but I think I’ll live. My pulse also seems a bit erratic but a girl has to do what a girl has to do. We’ll see how I feel tomorrow.

The diet seems to be going well but I feel like I’m eating like a pig. I guess that happens when you take your usually calorie count in and only eat veggies and fruit as carbs since you get more “bang for your buck” out of them than a bowl of pasta. Of course it’s only day three and I am going out to dinner tonight. But I should be able to muddle through. Besides, it’s not like Atkin’s or another diet where you can’t “cheat”, it’s more of a lifestyle choice than a diet.

So I've heard from a few more people who actually had cancer induced Cushing’s – very strange. In a weird way it makes me feel okay about these tests because these people survived. It’s kinda weird when you hope for such a horrible thing but than at least I could get on the road to recovery. Some people would think I’m sick for thinking this way but really it’s about survival and when you go on not knowing for months and years on end all you really seek are answers. We only have to wait another two weeks for my urine tests to come back. Hopefully with some answers! I’m going to see what other info on that I can find out just in case so I’m prepared.

I also am speaking to a woman who had cyclic Cushing’s and took nine years to get fixed…I hope mine goes faster since the longer it goes on the harder it is to recover and the more long-term effects one has. There’s not a lot on the internet about cyclic since it is rarer but I think she may have some insight and tell me about some of the tests she had run that finally got her surgery and on the road to recovery. That’s my main goal right now!

Okay, I’m going to go rest my fluttering heart so I can make it to dinner tonight!