It's Been A While

To say the least it has been a while since my last posting. Honestly I am sick of writing about being sick and how much fun it is...it is actually leaving me feeling quite empty. Like I have nothing to show for myself at the age of 34. I wouldn't call it depression and in fact my docs agree but I need to step away from this as it is prohibiting me from writing the stuff i want to do. I am hoping to get some financial aid to enable me to gain some additional background and return to my dreams of journalism or even creative writing and if lucky both.

Being stuck with an illness for more than four years has been one of the hardest things in my life but what I am finding harder is pulling myself out of an illness. Something both medically impossible and emotionally feeling the same. I do realize that I can do something emotionally and that means taking a break from the depressing news I have to offer about medical care not being available to me know and the oodles of debt it has put me so that no doctors will take me on as a patient.

I have asked my former teacher to help as well as some friends who I know can give me some fabulous critiques so I can write a piece strong enough to get into a Master's program, at least online while I am still sick. If anyone would like to read some pieces, some opinion pieces, some about my battle, and some just about whatever strikes my fancy that day.

I need a vacation, since I can afford a real one the best I can do is step away from my illness when I can. As of lately I am extremely ill and my stomach and body are being tortured. You are sick of hearing it and I am sick of saying it. Seriously how much more can either of us take. I do plan to advocate for the chronically ill and to fight my way through so at times there will be updates but they will be far and few between. I hope you will visit me and support me in my new endeavor of writing to write not to write about being sick.

You can click on my profile and read new writings coming in the next few days...the title is Unwanted Obstacles. It will focus on the struggle to find the positive side in the hard facts or unwanted obstacles life hands us. Hopefully it will help me see the light again when it comes to my diseases and the healthcare debacle that the country has no urgency in fixing.

So look for it in a few days and send me emails if you would like to help me create the best writing of my life for a Master's degree application so I can get a financial award large enough to afford it. I know on my current budget it is never going to happen so all of your support needs to be objective and positive.

I look forward to sharing better news in the future and hope you will continue to visit for updates here but even more importantly at Unwanted Obstacles.